Wednesday, September 22, 2010
I LOVE being a mom.
Scary thing I did today and will NEVER do again.
I stuck him in the bath while I was checking my emails for work. Forgot that the water was running, RAN into the bathroom. The water was pretty high. ALOT higher than I EVER put in.. and it hit me that I could have:
A. completely forgot about the water and let it overflow. He wouldn’t be able to scream or cry to tell me that he was drowning. It really hit me hard.
B. He could have slipped under for just a few seconds, letting water fill his precious little lungs and again, I wouldn’t have heard him.
I thank my Heavenly Father for watching my baby, especially while I was being so negligent. I pray that I will use my brain a little bit more, not be so selfish, and really truly think about the respobsiblity that I have as a mom to nurture and protect the little life that God has placed in my care.
He is such an angel and I really don’t think I understand how much he means to me at times. I read this blog the other day, and it hit me how much I take for granted. I am so blessed and I really want to cherish every second I have with Eamonn. Especially because he is not going to be so small and innocent for long.
Every stage he is in automatically becomes my favorite. Every naughty thing he does makes me giggle and especially makes me happy to be a mommy. The Lord has truly blessed me with the opportunity and responsibility to be a mom. It is the best decision i have ever made. I am excited to once again hold my newest little spirit in my arms. I know that she has been following me and lifting me up while in Heaven and it is now my turn to do the same for her.
I need to get back to work, but I couldn’t just let these overwhelming feelings pass me by. I really wanted to document them and write them down.
I love being a mom. I can’t get over how much I love Eamonn. I really think that I was made to be a mom. I love every little bit of it. I think I am still in the honeymoon stage with him though. ;) he still doesn’t throw that many fits, and when he does, they are minor and quite humorous. He can’t back talk. All he does is explore, explore, explore. He also chats to himself while doing so. I probably smile atleast twenty times a day due to his cuteness. I just can’t get over it.